She knows I am a bit different to other kids.
Sometimes, she stops eating the tv remote and watches me.
I can imagine her wondering what it is that makes me different.
She is sitting and standing now. She's taken a few steps and she's so chatty.
She climbs over everything and she always turns off the television when I'm listening to it. She's feeding herself and playing with toys.
She watches me and she wonders why I don't do those things.
One day, Mum and Dad will tell her the words she will need to know...
- Brain damage and moderate bilateral posteria periventricular leukomalacia
- Cortico Vision Impairment
- Level 4-5 cerebral palsy - spastic quadriplegia with dystonic quadraplegia, and
But for now, she just knows me.
I loved her even when she kicked me while she was still in Mum.
She still hits me sometimes... for no reason.
But she loves me.
She's too busy to go around giving people kisses and cuddles, unless she's really tired... But, guess what. She kisses me. And, she lies on me and that's like a cuddle.
She is really good at blowing raspberries on people, too and I am one of her favourite people to blow raspberries on. She crawls over to me, lifts up my shirt and my belly tickles with her little, noisy raspberries.
She has started to offer me my drink and sometimes, she tries to feed me.
She usually snatches toys away from me, but sometimes, she hands me something to play with.
In the morning, when she gets out of bed, she claps and cheers when she sees me.
My sister loves me.
Sometimes, people will do anything to avoid looking at me, and sometimes, people will almost crash in to a pole, because they are staring at me.
I get many, many double-takes and lots of whispered comments.
My sister will grow up feeling these, too. Some days, this will be awful for her, and she might even have occasions where she is embarrassed by me, and even, angry and resentful for having to put up with my stares.
But, I know that these moments will pass, and that underneath everything, she loves me with all her heart.
But, she might have to take the rubbish out or vacuum the floor... and I probably won't have to do that!
My sister has a brother with severe cerebral palsy... who has no words, yet...
and I have a sister who already has incredible empathy and understanding.
She doesn't have the words, and she doesn't know why I'm different.
She just knows I am different.
And, she knows to be proud of me.
She will see me doing my exercises and she will clap and cheer.
She kisses me for no reason and she goes around the house saying 'Hi, Dexter!''
in her cute, high-pitched little voice.
My sister may face a lot of difficulties and hardships, judgement and teasing because of me. She will also see the way people look at me, and how they treat me.
She will hear their comments. She will see their pity.
And, she will see the people who actually see me - Dexter - a little boy.
My sister will probably always see people for exactly who they are, not what they look like or what they can do.
For that, I am very proud of my sister, and I love her very, very much.