(From Dexter's Mum's blog)
Nine weeks ago tomorrow, my baby arrived into the world.
Today was Dexter’s official due date. We didn’t even get to have bets on when he would arrive – we didn’t even get time to discuss more name options!
I often think, ‘if only’…. If only my waters hadn’t broken. If only he had of stayed put. If only I could turn back the clock. If only I could make everything ok and take away everyone’s hurt. If only…
But, we have met and gotten to know our baby nine weeks early. We get to love him nine weeks longer and he gets to love us in return for nine extra weeks. We have gotten to know each other before our time was meant to start, which, despite all the pain and heartache, I would not change at all.
I have never been alone in this journey. This has shown me so much, not just about myself but about others. It’s shown me kindness from complete strangers. It’s shown me that there are so many wonderful people out there who care for us. It’s shown me that I am actually a lot stronger than I ever thought. It’s shown me unexpected love.
I wanted to be taking Dexter home this week. Unfortunately that is not going to be happening and we still have some time before that big day.
But for now, we have our beautiful Dexter who, without knowing, has changed our lives for the better. He has taught me that it’s ok to cry, it’s ok to look to others for help, it’s ok to sit in silence. He has taught me complete and utter unconditional love.