Mum was not feeling well at all.
She had a horrible flu, but she was still pushing through; still working and still going to the gym. Mum remembers five years ago today...
Mum remembers something from every day, leading up to my birth.
Five years ago today, Mum was exhausted and just wanted to rest.
Mum looks back on five years ago today and wonders if she should have done things differently.
She wonders what she did wrong, that caused me to get sick.
She wonders what she should have been doing, so I didn't get sick.
She blames herself, for not carrying me inside her for nine months.
She blames herself for making me fight from such a tiny age.
She blames herself for causing my brain damage; my cerebral palsy and my vision impairment.
We don't think she had anything to do with it.
We don't blame her!
We don't like that she blames herself, but she can't help it.
Not all birthday memories are happy ones for Mum. My birth wasn't a happy time.
#turningfive #birthday countdown!